A WHOLE LOT

Lol someone screenshotted my photo and sent it to me with a beautiful message.

Whilst I receive it with gratitude, I’m reminded of how far I’ve come.

I carry a lot…. A WHOLE LOT and many people will never truly know the weight behind my smile. I often hear, “You’re so strong” or “You’re glowing,” and while that’s true, there are days I quietly fall apart too. (Just thought to mention the obvious.)

The truth is, healing is not linear. It’s a mixture of joy and ache, laughter and longing. Some days, I wake up ready to take on the world. Other days, I just want to sit still and breathe through the weight of it all. And that’s okay.

Yes, I’ve found joy again.

Yes, I’ve reconnected with my inner child (shoutout to my uni friend who made me dig deep to find playful Dee 😀).

But I’m still healing. ❤️‍🩹

Still learning that strength can look like softness.

Still choosing peace when I could choose pain.

Grief tried to silence me, but grace spoke louder (phew, thank you God).

And though I don’t have it all figured out, I’m proud of the woman I’m becoming… grounded, grateful, and still standing. 🤍

To everyone walking through their own version of “a whole lot” I see you. You’re not alone in carrying the unseen weight. It’s okay to be both strong and soft, hopeful and healing, rebuilding and resting all at once.

I write and pour my heart into my blog www.toliveagain.uk. Feel free to check it out and let me know what topics you’d love to see there. You know I love LOVE… so at some point we shall be talking about love and loss 🙏🏾

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